Session Start (wavedirect2:puppy108): Fri Jan 28 18:42:22 2005
puppy108: i fucking hate you and yet i want to punish you evne though i love you
*** Auto-response sent to puppy108: mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmonica
puppy108: and there is no fucking way that you are here or around me right now because im so mad and yet i still care for you and it fucking drives me insane that i can love and care for someone that hurts me and loves me soo much
wavedirect2: um
*** Auto-response from puppy108: only because i love you so much is it that you can hurt me so badly like this. how can you hurt someone you love or care for so badly. how is it that the ones you love the most are also the ones that hurt you the most.
wavedirect2: mm
wavedirect2: i dont know what to say
puppy108: ya and leaving me there was fucking wonderful of a guy who supposedly cares for me
puppy108: so now what 
puppy108: you leave me to fucking rot in my room angry as hell at you
puppy108: ?
puppy108: are you even going to talk to me
wavedirect2: im here
puppy108: or are you being a jerk
wavedirect2: i really dont know what do when you feel like this, monica
puppy108: leaving me to feel like shit doesn't seem like such a great thing to do
wavedirect2: i dont want to fight you more
puppy108: and yet you stated the fight.....
wavedirect2: i put your duck back up on the door after you slammed it
puppy108: oh wow thanks soo considerate you are of an inattimate object
puppy108: so now what?
puppy108: your ignoring me and i still feel like shit
puppy108: that's fun
wavedirect2: i dont know
wavedirect2: im not ignoring you
puppy108: bull shit your not talking to me
wavedirect2: what?
puppy108: your doing jack shit to get through this and just wanting to keep this going
wavedirect2: rubbing you out in the cold with my hands on your toes to keep them warm isnt jack shit
puppy108: ya and starting it did a whole lot to help
wavedirect2: i feel like something is about to explode with you sometimes
wavedirect2: but it can be perfectly fine
wavedirect2: i dont know
wavedirect2: its a weird feeling
wavedirect2: scary
puppy108: you treat me like shit
wavedirect2: ok
puppy108: and yet were loving seconds before
wavedirect2: this is all your interpretation, combined with your moods
wavedirect2: i dont know what do you when you tell me you are happy to have this perfect boyfriend, or when you say you hate me
wavedirect2: because i dont know whats affecting it
puppy108: fuck moods there my feelings towards life wether rational or not
puppy108: i do
puppy108: feel that way and yet you say shit to hurt me and to harm me
puppy108: and yet we have to fight now even over the fucking internet rather then face to face 
wavedirect2: monica, i never say things trying to hurt you
puppy108: bull shit the fucking talk to me face to face rather then cop out and leave
wavedirect2: why did you leave?
puppy108: i was fucking miserable and feeling like shit in the cold and rain
wavedirect2: i know the feeling
puppy108: bull shit you werent the one beating me like hell 
puppy108: emotionally
puppy108: why do you leave and run away from me when i went back inside
wavedirect2: because you left and ran away from me when you went back inside
puppy108: because i didn't want to go out in the rain and yet i didn't want to be there
puppy108: you didn't seem to care running straight after me you left causally as if nothing had happened
puppy108: as if i didn't mater to you
wavedirect2: i wanted you to get whever you wanted to go before i approached you, instead of chasing you
puppy108: so you left me that's great.
wavedirect2: ok
puppy108: you don't care to find out where and what was going to happen to me
wavedirect2: i do
puppy108: bull shit or else you would have folowed me and cared what happened
wavedirect2: i followed you to the steps, and you left me there, i though that means you dont want me to follow
puppy108: why don't you even care to talk to me now
wavedirect2: i am talking to you
puppy108: or why did you just leave and not talk to me when you lef
puppy108: t
puppy108: bull shit i had to write to you to get you to talk 
puppy108: you fucking lie and lie
wavedirect2: you were away
wavedirect2: i though you were on your bed
puppy108: well if you thought so much then why didn't you come back
puppy108: why didn't you fucking care to see when or if i was ok
wavedirect2: because i wanted to give you time to calm down
puppy108: bull shit you didn't want to deal with me untill i calmed down but yet i don't want to be calm because your being a shitter
wavedirect2: ok
puppy108: you make me feel like shit then leave me to feel like shit alone as if that will help
puppy108: you don't fucking care to know what i need or what we need
puppy108: you just want what you want and just use me for shit and then leave when you think you've paid your dept
puppy108: your full of shit about careing for me and trying to care for me
wavedirect2: i feel like you are the same way
puppy108: you don't fucking care to talk to me in person just fucking bithch at me online only
puppy108: you say jack shit to me inperson just crap of fighting
wavedirect2: just crap of fighting?
puppy108: why wont you talk to me in person
puppy108: you just seem not to care to me in person
puppy108: just to fight and finght online
wavedirect2: ill talk to you in person, meet me somewhere
puppy108: fuck no
wavedirect2: ?
puppy108: im not going out in the fucking cold because your an asshole and want me to go somewhere
wavedirect2: ...
wavedirect2: listen to what you are saying
puppy108: what that your an asshole because your to chicken shit to come back over and finish what you started
wavedirect2: i guess so
puppy108: so what now chicken
puppy108: you wont even talk to me in person
wavedirect2: please stop looking for trouble
puppy108: you started it and are keeping it going by not talking to me in person
puppy108: your just pissing me off more and more whole you talk online
puppy108: you don't care to talk in person rather then fight here
puppy108: you are acting like a princess who want to do only what you want
wavedirect2: listen to what you are saying
puppy108: i cant listen im trying
puppy108: you wont even talk to me
puppy108: takl is in person
puppy108: listening requires talking not typing
puppy108: so your full of crap
wavedirect2: i disagree, and i dont want to talk to you in your room right now
puppy108: by not actually  talking in person
puppy108: why the fuck not
wavedirect2: its not a very safe place
puppy108: fuck of if you cared then you would get up and come over and talk to me
wavedirect2: if you were less commited to being mad you would meet me somewhere because its that important
puppy108: why is it important you left
puppy108: your the coward for leaving
wavedirect2: ok
puppy108: stop dragging this shit on and come over and talk
wavedirect2: ive done that plenty of times, monica
puppy108: what dragging it on
puppy108: ya you are
puppy108: come over because you don't have the space to talk to me
wavedirect2: the space?
puppy108: your house is full of other people always
wavedirect2: ok
puppy108: mine is empty and yet your chicken shit to come over
wavedirect2: right
puppy108: why cant you accept that you fucked up and come over and deal with what you created and i will admit what i did to add to the problem and we can get this over with
puppy108: why do you want to drag this on
wavedirect2: i dont want to drag it on
wavedirect2: just drop it monica
puppy108: no fuck no
puppy108: your being a coward by not talking to me now about it
puppy108: talking implys in person
wavedirect2: i wanted to talk to you about it on the stairs, and i told you i am sorry
puppy108: not over the dam internet
wavedirect2: that was in person
puppy108: bull shit i just was in your way of leaving 
wavedirect2: not at all
puppy108: you didn't even care to see when i went
wavedirect2: it looked like you were going back into your house
puppy108: you are such a shitty person for not talking to me aobut it
puppy108: yes i wanted to go away from the stairs and that apartment and their looks
puppy108: so i went back to deal with you 
puppy108: and try to work through this 
puppy108: not to have you walk off and still treat me like crap
puppy108: hello? 
wavedirect2: im still here
puppy108: why will you not finish this
puppy108: why not TALK to me
wavedirect2: i am finished
puppy108: then why are you still being a jerk
wavedirect2: i dont think i am
puppy108: well i think you are and you think im mean so neah
wavedirect2: ok
puppy108: ok so what
puppy108: your still refusing to come and talk to me
puppy108: i think that shows that you don't care about me
puppy108: why arent you talking to me in person 
wavedirect2: why arent you?
puppy108: why wont you just admit what is wrong
wavedirect2: i seems like when we fight you just keep fighting away not matter what i do until you are done
puppy108: because i don't see a point in going in the rain when i wasnot the one sta=ting it
puppy108: starting it
puppy108: then why don't you just fuck off and not talk to me since you don't think it does nothing
puppy108: anyways
wavedirect2: that sounds good
puppy108: if you think talking to me online or in person doesn't help then why are you saying anything
puppy108: you are such a jerk and you reuin my life with this
wavedirect2: because i want to be there for you when you feel better
puppy108: you like to do this 
wavedirect2: i hate doing this
puppy108: you enjoy getting what you want wich was to go back home
wavedirect2: i am enjoying it
puppy108: you get exactly what you want and i get a night of hell and a fucking asshole for a friend
puppy108: then don't come back ever
wavedirect2: or you could go on doing what you were doing and talk to me later
puppy108: what to feel like shit because you treat me like shit
puppy108: ya that's fun to do on a friday night
puppy108: if you want to end this then go away and don't talk to me again because i don't need this shit in my life if you don't care to talk to me in person and are unwilling to compromise on where to talk to me
puppy108: are you going to write to me or are you ignoring me for good?
wavedirect2: im here
puppy108: then fucknig come over here (or to my car) and deal with this shit that you have caused 
wavedirect2: the car is ok
wavedirect2: il leave now
puppy108: fuck you you are such a coward
wavedirect2: ok
puppy108: fine
puppy108: assdhole
Session Close (puppy108): Fri Jan 28 22:08:38 2005